I do not like me!!!!

Yup, you heard that correctly. I'm DO NOT like myself these days. I'm officially now a "Fluffy Girl". Tony and I have been together 3 years this Christmas. When he and I first got together I was a size ten. I LOVED myself. Now I despise what I have become. One has to love themself before they can love others and right now I don't love me. I will NOT tell you what size I am now. I will tell you that I can't get into the tens anymore, nor can I get in the twelves or the fourteens that I have in my closet. I look in the mirror and I'm totally sickened by what I see. I just want to take a knife and slice the fat off my body. I DO NOT LIKE ME! TAKE ALL THE MIRRORS OUT OF MY HOUSE!!! So what am I going to do about it... I'll tell you. Last Wednesday I made up my mind that I was going to love myself again. I was going to get back into my "Skinny Girl" cloths again. So I joined Curves for Women and have drastically changed my eating habits. I have worked out every day but Sunday. They are closed on Sunday. So, I would like y'all to help me. For every time you speak to me I'll do an extra minute of workout. Right now I'm only working out 30 minutes a day as that is the minimum they recommend. I do not want to post a before picture of myself, but if y'all insist I will. I DO want to post an after picture. Can ya help a fluffy girl become a skinny girl? I will keep you updated on my progress. I would add a progress bar to the blog but then you would know how much I weigh and I'm terribly embarrased. Tony will never know how much I weigh. So get to talking to me. I really need to get this FAT off!